It's 2013

so much has happen since first year med school. My last post was last 2011! I stumble on my blog while browsing my facebook profiles and blog posts which was linked to multiply and this blog is was linked to it. but since multiply has been down I guess this blog is no longer linked to facebook. I like doing that. all the linking. My twitter and instagram is linked to facebook. perhaps all my social media is linked to facebook. anyways I missed this. I miss blogging and writing like nobody is ever going to read this post which is ridiculous cause its out in the internet. I might as well write this stuff on a journal. I have one but its not as quite as exciting as writing one online. I guess that why people like to post stuff on the internet and in social media. You'll just never know who's reading or looking. people like a sense of mystery in their everyday lives. So the last few years have been surprising well. Looking back despite having dengue and repeating my third 2nd semester "so close, yet so far" on becoming a junior intern" I come to realizes that my life has been good and I'm blessed. I get to travel to Thailand and Cambodia and meet you people and have new friends. I was tested a lot last semester about my morals and succumb it. I get to know a lot about people and that people are not just one thing, like he's good person. or a certain personality. period. instead I get to see a person in their mosaic form. depends on what he wants to show to people who he was at the particular moment. Anyways here's a recap of photos from the last 2 years. everything is on Instagram anyway but I like to see some here to remind me of the happy times maybe in the next few years when I stumble back to this blog.

sem break

this is my second sem break in med school. and yes I still don't know how I got here or what was I thinking enrolling in a med school! anyways I'm still alive and surviving. making it all the way through. class have been ok. experiencing 3 removals during the first year, 1st semester was terrifying but i do believe that it have to happen. maybe character building? anyways I've learned from it and I'm moving on. I'm taking a regular bloc section now. It's all the second year subjects and listening and observing how well my second year regular batch mates went, it's going to be one long of a rollercoaster ride. but like what the big countries do, highschool history and geogrphy taught us that big countries first observe their competition see what they're up, learn their mistakes and do better. so far i've been observing what my future will be as a second year med student and its frightenning. I might have to go all over the emotional roller coaster as last year but this year I know that I don't have to. I now know that this year I have great friends, a room-mate that I can always count on, I don't have to be alone anymore plus I've done some advance reading. =) I've learn that there is no shortcuts in medicine. you just got to keep on reading. so with that wosh me luck on my Second year in med! =)

ok so my last blog was last nov. 26

Reasons for not blogging:




1)Currently since December I do not have laptop. Even right now I'm using my phone to blog

2)Been busy, tired, out of words, uninspired to blog


3)The internet connection here is super slow


I'm here again at this point where the semester is almost done and finals are fast apprpaching. Tension and stress are starting to build up but I've been here before (last sem) and now i have to reflect back and start modifying my study habits. I'm a little well adjusted than I was then. I have great friends who became even greater. I'm not so much alone as I were before. I do believe that there is a reason why I became irregular and now I'm okay with it. though I think I do have alot of free time. I do not have Monday class so every weekend is a long weekend for me but that gives me time to study and review by myself. I didn't have that time last sem. A time for me and my books, notes and reviewers. It's not easy becoming an irreg. always out of place, discriminated but what makes it okay was knowing that you're not the only one. you just have to get through each day knowing that you're not alone.

its 3 am

can't sleep cause I slept at 2pm and didn't turn on the alarm which led me to wake up at 10:30pm. till then I couldn't go back to sleep. I haven't been blogging much which means I get what I wish for. TOXICITY. yes I'm now starting to feel the pressure and stress building up. I have official become a hermit. Like I wasn't a hermit before but I was a sociable hermit. I attended basketball, volleyball game, movie date, outings like EK and Tataytay, med night, battle of the band, pageant night, fashion shows, gala night, swimming bondings. Every school activities and friends outings, I was there, I was supportive. That was last semester. Now the very first activity the APMC held at Ateneo last week and I didn't attend. It started from there then as I overslept this afternoon I didn't get to attend Abbie's birthday at the Music house. I'm now boring and a loner.   

Gross Anatomy

Why do I have to repeat the two most boring subjects in medicine? Anatomy and histology. It’s like taking history all over again in highschool and college. I was trying to review gross (anatomy) and micro (histology) and all I can think about is physiology!! Why? I don’t know. It’s not like I have big test on physiology tomorrow. No I have an anatomy practical tomorrow and I’m not yet ready and I don’t know why I can’t bring myself up to study for the exam tomorrow. Anatomy. Anatomy. Why don’t I like you? Knowing every little detail about you makes my head hurt but knowing every process and function of it physiology always leaves me with awe. I’m now attempting to write poetry on how much I dislike and like my subjects and this all due to that there’s no internet at the condo. Yesterday, finding out there’s no wiifii I dash to trinoma and over to coffee bean just so I can use to the internet Hey, I got my CFM assignment done there. Anyways while I was there I get to witness a generation of family and friends hanging out in the coffee shop. It was a nice view to see and now I thinking to going over there again but since December is on its way and I’m really tight on my budget I have to slow down and not spend. I’ve been spending and withdrawing whenever I go out so I lock myself at the dorm with all my books around me trying to get myself to study. Tomorrow is going to be my first lecture in anatomy yes my first and class starts a week ago. I’m not sure what the topic is going to be because they haven’t given out a curriculum schedule yet so I’m guessing if it’s Dr. Mendoza tomorrow 7am it’ll probably be about axial skeleton and next will be Dr. Banez he’ll probably discuss the appendicular but he didn’t lecture that topic last semester so he might dive us in to the shoulder region. And yes there’s practical exam tomorrow. I never enjoy gross anatomy practical. It’s very depressing because no one except to pass it even if you study really hard cause what they do is trick you in knowing the right answer when its wrong. Maybe that’s why I don’t like anatomy. During highschool teacher Victoria taught the least favorite subject in school. No it’s not history. That’s my personal least favorite subject. She taught Math. Now we all know that very few people yet alone kids especially in highschool likes Math. She kindda change the general perspective of Math, trying to make it simple. She once said, “Love Math and it’ll love you too.” I did try. I even scribble it on my notebook and a classmate saw it. It was embarrassing seeing me scribble I Love Math on my notebook when my grade in Math transcribe otherwise. But in the end it get better somehow and I manage to move into a higher level. See I don’t know what the lesson is in here. I might very as well scribble I love anatomy in my notebook. But the thing is I don’t have a passionate, nice and kind teacher who’ll do anything to change one’s perspective on things. To get one mind open to curiosity and hunger for more information. I don’t have those teachers anymore like in highschool maybe even some in college, in med school I have doctors. They tell you this and that and some with even less enthusiasm. They would go on and on with a particular topic and wouldn’t mind if anyone was listening or sleeping. In the back of my mind I’ll tell myself I’ll just read about it when I get home and in the end I never did. Maybe the reason why I don’t like anatomy that much has a little factor to do with the professors. In the physiology and biochemisty department, I can see that their professors one way or another care. I just didn’t see it in the human biology department and come to think of it I’m a biologist.                        

patch adams

doing my CFM assignment. last Friday we were shown a film, "Patch dams" and were assign to write a reflection paper. given that tuesday is a non working holiday, i have a very long weekend. Saturday, Sunday, Monday and Tuesday off . Every week is sort of a long weekend since i don't have class on a Monday.I was thinking what am I going to do with my long weekend? perhaps go to a mall for window shopping which is very therapeutic, go to la messa eco park for a jog or sight seeing to clear my mind or just take pictures, my mom even suggest to go to paranaque, at least there's cable over there. well all that was banish and erase from my thought knowing that I have tons of work and studying to do. four days may not be able to be enough to cover it. Saturday I spent the whole day reading Guyton. I finished just one chapter! Chapter 27! believe me it was an achievement. For one whole day it was hard to open the book yet alone read and finish one chapter of the book. and I have many more chapters to read. For one whole day I stayed in the dorm, deliver food online and still can't get myself to read and finish chapter 26, 27, 25 and 28 for last week's discussion and advance reading chapter 29,30 and 31 for next week topics! Basically I'm screwed! plus physiology is not the only subject I have to worry about. I still need to master the bones Identify, laterality, parts! I have practicals on Wednesday and if that isn't torturing enough, I still have which I'm doing right and hopes to get it done at the end of the night before I go to bed, my reflection paper and assignment on CFM which is due on Wednesday. but still I consider myself lucky cause I have no class on Monday, which gives me a head start and advantage to do well. I do so hope that I do well, not only in a particular subject but to all my subjects. Back to the books and studying  =)        

first day of class wasn't as scary as I expected

before coming to class I texted tin if I could sit next to her at class. nervouse much? she was at school with Paul when I arrived. there wasn't much who re-take micro as I expected. we were less than 40 in a class. the usual waiting for the professor to arrived about an hour later. we headed to the lab and had our first exercise for the morning. it's true, we have the tendency to slack because the exercise was repetitive but to ensure that doesn't happen, we would be having quizes and practical every meeting. so there's no room for slacking off. it was a very brief first day of class. my class ended at 10 and I have the rest of the day off. my schedule is very loose and I have alot of free time. still not sure wheater it is a good or bad thing. anyways I haven't fix my sleeping habit yet. I can't seem to be a sleep by 10. fortunetly I'm able to wake up early the following morning.

first day of class

it's 12 am and wide awake technically my first day of school starts in 7 hours. nervouse much? I really need to get some sleep hope all things goes well later =)