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-MOCK Examination-

1st day - tuesday the second batch ppl (i was one of them) were transferred to the next class (5A). First paper was English one, which was a composition and i wrote a story about "saying goodbye". it was okay, i just keep on writing and writing until i didnt haf tym to check for any spellings and grammatic error. After the first paper was submitted, i feel shaky. Sangs said it just might be the aircon. B.M.1 i studied for BM. the berita. and it came out but i didnt studied that specific topic so im not sure how i did.

2nd day - wednesday I ROCK MY SOCKS hahaha. For the first few hours of school, we (the computer sciece students) have no exam. So we hang out in the library. it was josh, kevin, jason, vee and conan. Mrs Shanty came in the library and call us one by one for our practicle papers. i got a B its lyk the same mark i got from the mid-year. it wasnt that dissapointed neither am i impress. i mean its better than my bio and physic practicle marks. highest so far. Jason was acting lyk the game master, asking Kevin, Josh and I computer questions and he was so strict and stingy of giving kevin points even he got it right. I have to say i learn alot from them lyk the meanng of turnaround document. luckily josh explained it to me and it came out in the exam :P after that we hang out in the canteen. at break time most of the form 5B was in one table and Jas was lyk the 'senior table'and it would be great if one day we combined all the tables and all form 5 science ppl sitting on that table i mean no space for the juniors to seat. we're all busy studying while eating oofcorse. When the paper came i was so calm in answering the paper and i it was good because i studied for it and ofcorse with the help of a few o my computer-mates

3rd day - thrusday OMG i was so frustrated i mean i studied and i mean i really studied. Amaths paper 1 was alright i know i can pass that paper. but paper 2 i suddenly loose hope. i felt lyk my dream of getting lyk 8 o's fall right before eye. im lyk 'this is impossible' and i just look at my paper hopelessly. i'm writing and calculating but i have no idea what am i doing! im doom! i was in the verge of breaking down and crying but was able to hold myself together. im lyk 'what the heck!'. it's over.

Right now i feel lyk all my happiness has been drained out of me. i feel hopeless, i feel lyk everything i hated to feel. The heavy heart and the loss of streght.