There's so many things happening in my life and i feel that i cant take it anymore.... im becoming suicidal but dont worry i wont kill myself i just FEEL lyk it.... i'm one of the still hanging on..i dont know i just feel lyk standing still.. standing still, eyes close and just scream as loud as i can and just let everyone and everything just pass by through me.. dis has got nothing to do with anyone or anything just so you all know!
Just know i was in the stadium nervous and my heart just beat as fast as it could! If you have been through the waiting, for your turn to run in interschool then you know it feels but when you never had, you haf no idea. Its lyk your heart pumping as hard as it could lyk wanting badly to get out of your body! alright i hope your still here and that i didnt scare you away... now where was I oh.. yeah i was in the stadium waiting for my turn to run and as i watch my fellow st geogian ran... until when mrs sheeba said that im not running cause we're lack of one bloody runner!
i dont whether to feel happy that i didnt ran cause you know safe all your energy, forget about sports and continue to focus even more in your studies OR dammit i train lyk hell and i didnt even run at all and who knows we could even be in the top 10.
I went back to school with mrs Sheeba, mr. mubarak and chris. i was lyk pretending that everything was okay.. and when my sis told me how was it, did i won and all, i just said i lost. i created a white lie coz i didnt want her and my dad to think that im wasting my tym in this sports thingii, cause i mean i love sports! i didnt want my dad to think that all this tym he was wasting his tym sending me trainning and all timing me and all, supporting me this whole tym!
AHHH!!! just forget about it.. Its one unfourtunet event!
posted by SaRsTeR at
Saturday, July 09, 2005
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