YDM

My expirience attending YDM

I have been going to YDM lately cause ahm... well i just thought that since Sangs (my super duper as in over to the max to the mega over best friend) is LEAVING me; she's going to australia, i just thought i spend a whole lot of time with her. I mean I'm going to miss her so much that i'll regret about how little time we spent and she's been bugging me to attend YDM since ahm.. last year :s

yeah so it all started with a simple text msg i got at around 12 ish a.m. on a Saturday from Sangs wanting me to go to the mall and hang out. After hanging out in the mall at around 3 ish pm Sangs dad drop us off at SAC (st. andrew church) i was planning to walk to the bus stop and go home but instead suprisingly out of the blue Sangs invited me to YDM. my reaction? I was ahm.. well confused? i dont really know. It was last minute. I havent told my parent I just told them that im going to the mall with Sangs and that was it. YDM wasnt a part of my agenda on that day. I wanted to go but then there's apart of me that is afraid or maybe i was just shy. I was about to be torn into two. Sangs was like 'Sarah if you dont make up your mind in 10 seconds I'm walking!'. I was pressured! hahaha I have two choice. One, walk out of SAC to the bus stop, wait for the bus and go home and haf a nap, surf the net and eat OR Two, walk in that hall with Sangs and who knows what happen then. Sangs was counting 4, 3, 2... Finally I said "Okay fine I'll go" and a part of me was like "what are you thinking!"

So we walk to toward the hall and Sangs was opening the slide door. my heart was beating so fast and so hard that it felt like it wanted to get out of my chest. "there's no turning back now" i thought as Sangs opened the slide door. believe me, a part of me still wanted to back out and just run to the bus stop. I didnt know what i was putting myself through. with one last deep breath i finally have the courage to step in the hall.

As i walk in Sangs introduced me to her YDM friends and they are all nice and friendly. BUT being myself i was shy so i sat down at one place not moving, kept quiet and watch sangs and the band preformed. I wasnt that bored cause i know some of the songs they were playing and it reminded me how much i missed having band practise and praise and worship, plus i was also accompanied by Cassy. She's really nice.

then there was this ice breaker.. we were divided into two teams 1 and 2 i was a lil frigthen because Sangs wasnt with me she was in the other group and i was like "okay... yeah" I was so SHY! I didnt get to play cause ahm... well they wanted me to play but i was like "i'm new. I dont know their name!" So i just sat there in one corner and watched them play. hahaha. bt i also have fun watching them play cause they're all funny and they made me laugh till my cheeks hurt.

then there's this talk. i really like the talk. usually i dont listen at all.. but this talk i really listen. It was so.. inspiring and i learn alot and it really kept me thinking about my priority. I didnt get to join in the last praise and worship (the ending) cause i really haf to go... i am way late.. i REALLY haf to run. I just want to finished the talk. yeah...

Next week (Last Saturday...)

i was doing the school mag in school at around 9:50-ish and during lunch i walked all the way from school to delifrance with my one inch high heel shoe with Ali. After that at around 3 i haf to walked all the way from school to Sangs house. The shoes are really killing my feet. played cards with Sangs "The Auntie?" hehehe beat her twice! :) "speed" i hate that game hahaha i always losses. :( I have slow reflex..(this comes to my disadvantages later on....)

We started walking to SAC at around 4:20 ish then ahm... every time Sangs open that slide door i was having the similar feeling that i had last week. (my heart beating fast and hard and the feeling of wanting to back out) but it wasnt as bad as the first time. So we finally sat down and then we had praise and worship.

after that just as i was expecting, we had a game. We haf to make this really big circle and Sangs introduced me to Sarah which is so cool it was like "hi my name is Sarah". "hi Sarah. Nice to meet you. I'm Sarah too" hahaha So we stand next to each other and when we have to say our name it was like "Sarah. Sarah." and everybody went "ahhh??? whhatt???" there's two Sarah in a row. So there was Sarah T and Sarah O. the game was fun... i think it was ben ( i guess ) said Sarah... and i was about to say ryan cause he was next to Sarah T, then he said O so i ducked. then it was my turn to say a name. I looked around and i was like OMG who am i going to call. Sangs is already seated same as Josh... I know Becky but there's a lot of Becky what if i said becky and said an alphabeth that didnt exists or she has already sat down. I wanted to say Raymond cause i remember his name cause i used to see him play basketball during SAS and SGS match and he has the same name as my brother but i see that he was already siting down. So i just said the name that comes on the top of my head "Ivan". Speaking of Ivan, I really miss Ivan Blanco ( Ivee's Bro ) . Havent seen him since ahm... last year dec when i leave to the phils. He used to make me laugh till my cheeks super hurt every time i spent time with him. So yeah... then someone called ryan's name and i was about to say ivan but before i could even say his name or open my mouth, HE SAID MY NAME! see i really do have slow reflexs! need to play speed more!!! LOL!

then we haf a group activity i met theresa and a whole lot of other girls. I was really shy!!!!!!!!! i didnt write in the manila card until everyone has written something on it. I did write my goals and aims for this year in the manila card.

then we haf to write a letter to ourselves and i was like "Dear Sarah.............. infinite X's and O's Sarah"i didnt get to seal it but know they'll seal it. I use my Brunei address.. so if they sent it when i am gone in the phils, my sis will definetly receive it and is going to think that i'm insane. sending a letter to myself. bet she'll recognize my hand writting on the envelope.

As usual i haf to run. I was lyk ahm... late AGAIN... hahahaha i hate the fact that i have to leave early and at the same time i hate being late. I wish i could be at two places at once.

so yeah will be blogging again next week hahahaha but i'll be also be blogging at mysterymysticalmagical.blogspot.com cya! till next time

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