after midterm and before finals

i've read my last blog and it was after the prelims exams.. and yes that was a very depressing moment of my life. Midterm was satisfying meaning to say i did ok.. but that's just it. I did OK. it was great to compensate my low great in the prelims. so far my minor subjects are safe. im worried about my major. its funny how the subject that we spent so much time in its so hard to get excel but subjects that we attend just for an hour a week, we excel. I know i did OK and I'm not sure if my OK is enough to keep me safe from removals. Reason why i don't want to take the removals is because i want to go back to Brunei this semester break. as i have said in college and to my mom, the reason why i don't want to stay here because it's very stressful. It reminds me everyday that I'm here to work my butt off. Brunei to me is my getaway from all the stress and anxiety that I'm experiencing right here. which is why I have to work my butt again for the finals to aim for no removals. hopefully then I can do more than just OK. I hope I'll be able to do great.

Physio shifting this afternoon was very depressing. more so i was expecting to lift my low shifting score last shifting well it didn't go according to plan. I couldnt focus yesterday I dont know why. I even reviewed in starbuck. still I can't seem to concentrate. anyways last monday first shifting gross.. so far so good. practical.. bleh the usual but was pretty proud of myself that it wasn't that low. hm. its going to be a week full of shiftings. tomorrow biochem and psychobio quiz, thursday micro and friday hmme.. after this week final..

I'm excited that the semester is going to end but the anxiety of judgement day is killing me. I pray that everything goes well for my classmates and I. I think I'm going to have a flu anytime soon ahhh choo.. oh no..