HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIZ!!!!!!!!!

first of all i want to say happy birthday liz!!! you've been such a lovely friend since forever! hope you enjoy this wonderful and blessed day made especially for you.

okay today was 100% BORING we had a lil dmaths just our papers the someone from some universities comes to talk about their university and yada yada yada... not that the presentators were boring or anything its just that im looking at their presentation in the powerpoint and in my head was lyk why? i mean why should i even listen to any of this.. i'm not even going there anyway.. there's just so many university promoting and its just sad to say that im not even get to choose. Dont get me wrong i love to go overseas and studies but after this 'o' level thing im going back to the phils and its been confirmed. my mom is the phils now and she's looking at all the universities about their facilities, school fees and stuff... *sigh* thats why ive been a lil bit "cranky" just now in school... its just that i felt that all of that is a total waste of time. i dont even get a single brouchure from any collenge, its lyk whats the point! but i never fail to put a fake smiile on my face.. i think i was a lil to harsh on josh he was just trying to start a conversation by asking me which collenge am i going to and i just said a rather cold i dont know and that was it. but that did not give him up he asked another question about which corse that im going to take and i gave him another cold i dont know and finally he said which one most probably. and i just said what comes on the top of my head "medicine" and that was it!!! i didnt go "medicine *with my bright smile* what about you?" you know to keep the conver going but i was in no mood to converse hmm.. converse reminds me of shoes!!! hah! and that was it got our malay paper 1. my mid year marks are just bad and dont even care one single bit coz i know i did bad and what do i expect an a? *yeah right* most probrably a F was lucky to get an E i dont know i just suddenly lost all this hope about getting an A an all to me its lyk whats the point, it no use and all.. hey i dont mean to discourage you guys over there getting A's and all "hi sangs im really pround of you, i really am" i mean this is just me! I'm just expriencing a.................."doing-my-best dryness" this is due to the lacking of inspiration and motivation.. how? by staying at home sick for the whole holiday! hahaha not really its just all this inspiration and motivation thingii is just GONE!!! *poof* at thin air... tommorow going to the ODGC maybe something there will change my mind and attitude towards this stuff ahhh!!!!!!! just forget it!